I think I found something that should be an ADHD medication to help me called 3-fluoro-amphetamine. I'm not gonna use it but it's interesting to read about it. It's the reason that I think that practicing mindfulness and meditating etc will work over time.

"The euphoria is different. M*** is "incredibly fascinated in every thing, holy ****". However, it's literally like you are only interested in your own ideas, and you have a ton of them all the time. Since everything is exciting, how do you prioritize or plan and stick to it? It's also inherently hedonistic, in that same vein of "EVERYTHING IS FASCINATING". The underlying spirit of the euphoria is "you only live once, live in the moment while you can"... basically? It's like you are so invested in whatever is going on right then and there, it's really hard to think ahead and stick to it after you make that 5 page list, because it's all about the moment, right?

"3-FA feels more empathetic and caring. More loving, more social, more like "want to do the right things". So I'll cuddle my puppy more, text the gf a lot more, message my parents and talk to them more, get out of the house more, and so on. Due to the increased planning and organization, it also means that I can actually use that motivation to say, put the laundry away and start my homework. I don't just have ideas that I want to explore mentally or crave just experiencing life as a witness, I want do things... and I can."

"It's is so relaxing that it feels mentally and physically calming to me. I bet I'm still more stimulated than I feel internally, but I don't feel as like tense mentally as m***. So I'm not as paranoid, worrying, and thinking others think negatively of me... thus acting defensive towards others... thus making others respond negatively to me. So I was actually thinking about this, the people who like m*** for that mental speeding, probably wouldn't like 3-FA? Even though they both are such amazing releasers of Dopamine? But the people who like the sensual effects, calming sensation, alertness, focus, and awareness may love 3-FA. Who knows, but I really don't find 3-FA to be a "Ferrari" kind of drug."

This is very interesting to me. Cuz I never liked m***. That's why I stopped. I have definitely have changed my perspective about ADHD meds from reading this - because they don't actually do what they're supposed to do unlike 3-FA.

I will solve this problem. I'm not sure what mental disorders mean anymore. They are so vague.

"For me, my ADHD is solved by 3-FA or Dextroamphetamine. However, 3-FA is more calm and I love what kind of person I become on it. Dextroamphetamine is more anxious, but great verbal skills."