I woke up before 2 again. I tried extra melatoinin and going without my music to see if that would help me sleep better but it didnt. At least today seems to be going faster and easier then yesterday. I took a pepcid around 3AM and then I just now took a valium and a zofran. So right now I feel ok with my anxiety. I have not watched the news today either. I am very tired but I am worried about drinking caffeine. I had a bottle of Pepsi already. I have not taken a shower yet but I will in a bit

I just found out today is the day I get my shot. That may have been why my anxiety was so weird yesterday. I don't know if this every 1.5 week thing is still working. I'll wait on the shot until I see my doctor. I kinda figured based on how I was feeling this morning before the valium that this was the day I'd get it.

I'll report back after my appointment.

Edit: I saw on facebook that Putin has 600 nuclear missles more then any other country in the world. and I lost it a bit after that and decided to get my shot now. I got that and took my second valium and some tylenol for a headache that was developing. Now I am just very physically tired. But I seem to be ok for a week or so and then 3 or so days in a row are not good so I do wonder if I need to get back to getting my shot weekly instead of every 1.5 weeks. I'll ask my doctor today.

Actually I just went back to like page 24 on this thread and it seems like I've been consistently struggling throughout this month. Hopefully I'll have some sort of an answer today. Right now I'm enjoying not being anxious but I'm not enjoying being so exhausted. But I don't think coffee or even coke is a good idea.