last night I was thinking and praying about how trust is such a huge deal for me like one of those 'core issues' or whatever that for whatever reason therapy didn't "fix". well i mean yes i came to trust you probably more than anyone else - but, even so i still didn't trust you enough to stay in therapy with you and work through this whole pulling back all of my projections/transference stuff and the realizing that I don't really know you thing - I couldn't do it - I couldn't sit there anymore, with you-now-basically-a-stranger-who-knows-everything-about-me. I couldn't handle it, couldn't trust 'you' anymore. And now I've left myself in a position where I can't even explain all of this to you because as much as I keep thinking I want to call and check in with you - every time my Friday day off gets here, I realize I can't do it. I wonder what is the resolution to this? More time away from you, I guess. I don't know.