I am having a HARD time. I was fully warned by my therapist and others that this relationship could not have ended happily ever after and in fact would have descended into h$ll. I’m trying to keep busy and to move on and it’s nearly impossible. I am fighting myself not to return to him. I tell myself some pain now is a whole lot better than total devastation and possible danger later. The problem is that I really loved this guy and have never felt so loved, cared for or supported. It’s too bad there were so many other issues that could not be overcome.

I have 3 dates lined up but no stomach for it. Maybe I should focus only on recovery right now. I don’t know. I am thankful that I have a forum with which to work it out in. I really have appreciated the support I have received.

Still titrating off the lithium and then we’ll assess damage. My med provider relayed all this information to me. My doctor entirely missed the boat there.

I hope everybody has a peaceful day