Earlier today I got a call from the coroner confirming what my wife died from now we had talked last week and he told me the cause. Well I was at the grocery store after he called and they played a Pink Floyd song and it was one she loved and I started to cry in the store not sobbing but tears running down. Well I got home and I was looking up something on YouTube and I came across a old song that we both liked came on . This song brought me to hard tears.
I don't know if him confirming what she died from made her death a reality or not. I am really depressed right now like more than I can remember. I was not going to go to my church group but I have changed my mind and I am going to go to it tonight.

I would like to thank everyone here that has given me support. Thanks again.