EHKittys,
feeling for you, if I may say so I do know the kind of thing you're experiencing, it's something I have to battle against myself. Reaching out my hand to you, hope you'll accept it. Hadn't you better go to your doctor? Whatever happens, you musn't give up. . . . .
Is there someone you can contact, or talk to? yes I know all those symptoms, but all I know is we have to try to keep going, it's survival.
I'm giving you a warm hug, if it helps........