I have a belief that I am not really schizophrenic. I somehow think I am different from the rest. This is probably common in schizophrenia. So if I can realize this, why do I still think I'm not schizophrenic? I have no outlet to vent, talk things out, etc., other than a once-every-two-weeks appointment with my new therapist. Sometimes I wish I had an outlet other than one-on-one counseling. And my relatively new psychiatrist charges me extra if I "turn" my appointment with him into a psychotherapy session accidentally. And he doesn't even inform me that that's what he is going to do. He just charges me extra. And even though I have paid every bill I have been given, he acts like I am the one ripping HIM off. I definitely don't want to see him anymore, but I have to. I live with my parents because of my mental illness, but talk about being taken advantage of. I hate my new psychiatrist's office. The staff are judgmental, mean, nasty, imperious, and they talk about me behind my back, thinking I don't realize this. But then I bet if I confronted them, they would say, "Oh, no, we weren't talking about you.", or "Don't believe him, he's crazy." Or they might call the police or something. All they care about is running a business. They don't really care about their patients.