Screw this. I am not going to stop posting in this forum just because of the negative reactions that I have gotten (not from you guys). I have never let anyone stop me from doing anything before, so it is certainly not going to start now.

Anyway....

Ever since I have gone off the Lithium my mood has plummeted down to the point of a very deep depression within the last couple of days. I am going to have to get things straightened out with my meds... but until then, I have been relying on T more than ever (if that is even possible) by way of emails and phone calls in addition to sessions.

Today he called me back and I go, "I have a question for you. Am I ruining your life?"

T goes, "No. You are not ruining my life. Besides, if you were, don't you think it would have been ruined by now? If that was the case, you might as well just keep going."

Hahahaha, I really do love him. Damn, T made me start laughing in the depths of depression. He is so good at doing that.

I mean, yes, it was funny, but it was more than that. It just how much he gets me. I love that he is so in tune with my sense of humor and is comfortable and perceptive enough to know that it is completely appropriate to say stuff like that to me at certain moments.... because he knows that I will laugh; he knows that I will appreciate the dry ridiculousness of his comment.

Incidentally, I just meditated and I must have stumbled upon something that finally worked for me (I did it to a guided thing) because it was absolutely amazing. I never had that experience before. I was able to focus and feel a warm, intense energy throughout my body. I came out of it feeling stronger, clearer, and a bit brighter than before. I am going to do it again later.