Hi, therealstacy! Thank you for posting this. You sound like me. Everything Soupe du jour said sounds so completely right on, I can't really add much. But I can at least help you know that you are understood & that there are others like you. I have experienced your dilemma & lost a good friendship twice because I didn't let them know how I felt. The lack of trust is obviously an immensely difficult problem. It's based upon painful history, & I think it's only natural that we want to protect ourselves. I hope you can save your enjoyable friendship & make it better if you are able to.