Well I changed my phone number and have given it to exactly 4 people - my mom, my daughter, a friend and my therapist. I’m going to keep this close to the vest. I can’t even remember what it is right now.

It will be harder to change my email address so I think I’ll keep it.

I woke up crying and have had periods of sobbing but I am having periods of peace as well. I realize that this is for the best and I have to love and value myself enough to walk away and keep walking. I lost my best friend as well as my love so it’s been a double whammy. When will I be over it? I don’t know.

Now for some good news - I’m closer to my mother and daughter then ever before and I will be traveling half way to visit my daughter next weekend. I’ve settled on some new dreams and goals and I have a new sense of self respect. I’m headed to the Smokies in March with M, I’ll start working on getting the pool ready in April and head to Florida in May. I’m down but not out!

I hope everyone has a peaceful weekend