Dear T,

So I didn't hit send.

Yeah.

The part of me that wants this kept hidden is obviously much stronger than the part of me that wants to let it out. Maybe we start there. Going through one of my old notebooks I found a double page spread. On one side, the word share. On one side, the word hide. Surrounding the words are the reasons for both. Suffice to say the word 'share' is only accompanied by three reasons. The word 'hide' on the other hand, well the page is full. Full of reasons. How does the share part of me win, when the defense is so strong?

And by the way, you are still a complete stranger to me. Actually, you are probably worse than a stranger. You are at that intermediate stage where there is no way on this earth I feel like I can trust you, or feel comfortable with you, yet you are close enough to do significant damage to me.

I'm not sure how to get over that threshold you spoke of. You mentioned me choosing to step over it. Is it as simple as that though??? Can I just choose to?