@wildflowerchild25 and @BethRags and all:

I'm sorry for my previous post about me being a crisis junkie. It was hurtful years ago when i was in crisis at the time and the doctor said it. It was not helpful. Upon reflection, years later when i was long stable, i came to see that it was true, but it was damaging at the time and Tara i am sorry if i have added to your pain.