It's been a very unhappy day for me, so far.

I was trying to "get used to" the things that bother me the most, but then thought, "Maybe I shouldn't be trying to get used to it. These are things I care a lot about! Maybe I should be DOING SOMETHING about it."

The problem is that I don't know anything to do that is guaranteed effective, that might not just make it worse.

This is how to be tormented by your own mind.

Maybe what I need to accept is that with things being this way, caring greatly about something, wanting to do something, but not knowing what to do--I am just going to be unhappy all my life. Feels like it right now.

I'm not thinking of quitting, my life or this group, but I can't think of anything encouraging to say to anybody.

If I somehow feel better I'll post again ASAP.

EDIT TO ADD that I already had one positive thought. When you're stuck like that, not having anything to do except what might be more harm than help, that's when you kind of have to just get used to it, right? Maybe I can, maybe I can't, but it's a positive thought instead of the circular stuff.