Hi jinnyann, welcome to the DD forum. I think it's wonderful that your T gave you a little stuffed mouse like you had as a child to bring you comfort. We have about 20 million stuffed animals here (slight exaggeration ) and it seems like some are used more than others. Funnily, the bears that T gave us are always put way up on a shelf and when I find them lying out, it's only during times when it's evident that nothing could happen to them or anyone see them. I guess for safety reasons, but I'm not sure. It seems so to me though as in the past our bears were destroyed as a punishment.

From what you've said about your mother in other forums, it doesn't seem as if she would be able to give you what you might need? Perhaps you can learn to give yourself that which you are lacking from her? I know it's hard. Just last night I had nightmares and panic attacks and when I was finally calmed down, I had such deep sorrow because I realized once again that I would not get comfort from a parent, nor had I ever. During those times, I think it's imperative that we try to give ourselves as much comfort as we possibly can to get through.

There are some posts here I think about inner child that might help but I'm not sure where they are. Perhaps you can do a search. It might help.