I think a lot depends on what a person is dealing with in their life. I know for myself I was struggling a lot and stuck in hyper vigilant mode. I never had time to interact the way I was interacting and I did get triggered a lot. I was very confused by the ptsd I was experiencing and struggled to sleep and function. Plus I had crappy therapists that did not understand ptsd. It wasn’t until I finally found an actual trauma therapist that I was finally able to understand better. I was so frightened when I experienced flashbacks.

Much more is understood about PTSD then over 10 years ago.

Don’t beat yourself up, you were struggling and in need of help and support. 😉