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I was feeling too embarrassed to say much on here because all the things I was trying didn't seem to do any good. Feeling like a failure. But then, maybe the schedule did help. It had such good results with the house looking better because there's a lot of housework on it, and then I had fun because I scheduled some of that too. And so it pulls me back, even when I'm miserable. And that may break up a bad spell sooner than usual. Just doing things that have good results. Or maybe it's because it brings me back to the present, where nothing is actually going wrong. These things I worry about are things that may never happen.

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