Dear T,
I feel like I was a bit of a coward today. Feel really guilty for canceling on my friends, but I knew I couldn't handle it. I mean, I barely handled outside with H. That, I had to push myself to do. I was very tempted to just cancel with him as well, to get carryout. But I didn't. And I stood inside the place maskless for maybe 5 minutes (probably more like 3 in reality) waiting for them to take my order. So...that's some sort of progress?

I mean, as I said to H tonight, I'm anxious about even potentially starting to meet you in your office next month (which starts in a couple days, of course). You haven't given a specific date. But if I'm anxious about meeting a single vaccinated and boosted person who is being careful about exposure alone in an office sitting 6 feet apart--of course I'm going to be anxious in a restaurant with like 20 people, no idea of their vaccination status (not that it probably matters much with Omicron), lifestyle, etc.

I think we need to come up with a plan for me to ease back into in-person society. I'm hoping you will actually start in-person again in a week or two, as that will help me work my way into indoor gatherings with more than one person. I feel like H, my family, and my friends will be a limit as to how understanding they'll be. Plus, I miss the real world. And want to be able to attend and enjoy the concerts in late April and May....

Love,
LT