Felt bad after I left today, but really it’s nothing to do with you, it’s the reality of my life at present I’m having trouble facing. Everything just feels catastrophic for me right now, that I’ll fail and be hurt even worse than before we (me/siblings) got to this point. I’m not even sure if I’m being realistic or the scared, needy child is running things and can’t see the wood for the trees.
If crystal balls had a real function, I could just look and find out. The results might be appalling, but at least I’d know.