I can at least relate. I just returned from an easy trip up the coast with 2 very close family/friends. Lots of outdoor time. I had such a great time that I started to think that maybe there's nothing wrong with me at all except that going to a T makes me obsess about my problems. Yet, because of timing, I would not see him for 3 weeks, and I am embarassed at being so scared of that. I'm a very independent person and to have to rely on a relative stranger for acceptance pisses me off. I often think about quitting altogether. Only, now that the trip is over, I'm not feeling so strong again. (Sorry, didn't mean to make this my story). And so, I will see him at least once more.
I don't have any answers, but in my humble opinion, I think you should at least return once more and discuss your concerns with T. Good luck.