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Originally Posted by Soupe du jour
I have a new life abroad, barely speaking the local language, not understanding or fitting in the culture, no longer owning a home like I did or feeling anything here is "mine", feeling more disabled in various senses. Barely anyone to talk to besides my husband and people here at Mysupportforums.org, even though I love to communicate. Feeling a bit trapped and very impatient to truly start a new life. Wishing the pandemic was finally gone. Working hard as hell to maintain mental stability. I'm doing OK, considering, but often I just want to go home. Not even to my old home country. Just home, wherever that may be. Home. A place that learns to know me and for me to feel a part of.
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Hi Soupe,
I've only had a few close relationships too. All of them are lost except one that's become distant, but still it's something, and then my autistic son, who's hard to communicate with but says he loves me and occasionally does things for me. Life. I really feel for the sense of isolation and not being home that you expressed so well.