Well its 3am and Im awake, but not for long. Ill be back asleep soon, I just cant fall straight back asleep just now, Ill give it an hour at most I reckon.

Im so sorry to everyone who is struggling at the moment Youre all in my thoughts

Its such a difficult time for the world isnt it?

So Im definitely not over my depressive episode but Ive reflected and Ive still made a lot of progress. Im making plans for the summer which is really positive. I bought a pair of sparkly shoes that I thought about the fact I can wear when I go to see Elton John with my sister in the summer. It was a fleeting though but this means that Im planning on being here this summer.

I have an appointment with my pdoc at lunchtime so I can tell her that. I know Im still sleeping too much and I still feel on the low mood side, but nothing compared to how I was, so obviously things are still improving which is good.

My anxiety is pretty high, but thats not as important as getting through this depressive episode. I can deal with that later.

I think we all need to try and be a bit kinder with ourselves. Its so easy to forget the compassion that we show others should be reflected inwards too. I hope this reminds even just one person to show yourself some compassion

Sending lots of positive thoughts and hugs to everyone who needs them