I jsut had an appointment with my psychiatrist and basically we came to the conclusion that Im not all better and I need to give it more time.... Im pretty upset.... but I know its true. I just keep wishing myself better but I cant even sit for a whole tv show without losing concentration yet. And my sleep is still bad, 14 hours ish.

I am however, better than I was. But when I really think about it, my dark thoughts are still with me and theyre still an option in the background. Which, I know theyre not when Im well.

I told her about the sweating and clamminess. She isnt going to change my meds again, just going to see how the next few weeks go.
She's worried that Ill go too high if we do anything else. That or serotonin syndrome she said.

So yeah, my reality is in fact that Im not well and I need to try and accept this and "give it more time".

We did discuss my work and she said that shes glad Im going to be reviewed by occupational health again before deciding when to go back. She doesnt think I should go back in 2 weeks after my review but Ill just take it one day at a time.

I hope you have all had a lovely sleep and I hope you have a wonderful day