I got my blood test done today. We got there shortly after 7 and It was crowded and I was worried about being deadnamed since they sometimes do at this lab. But they called me by my correct name and I got it done a little bit before 8. Then I had therapy and it went decently. She said the end of the world should be the least of my problems. We talked about going off the testosterone and my concerns about it. Then I brought up my transference T and I mentioned feeling like I had made peace with her and I had got rid of all the candy that I ate because it reminded me of her. Then right after that without thinking I said "what kind of candy do you like?" And she kinda snapped and said "you don't need to know that sir." And like I know right after I said it how it sounded but I was legit just trying to make conversation and I didn't mean to cross any boundaries. I told her that and at first she didn't believe me. But I guess she finally did believe me after I stressed it was basically just word vomit. Then she did bring up the needing strong boundaries issue, and I don't know. I guess being snapped at like that kinda bugged me. I went out grocery shopping afterwards and then got a hot dog and a diet Coke because I couldnt remember the last time I had an actual meal and I felt better after eating.

Edit: I cant tell if I'm going to have an anxiety attack or pass out from hunger. I've taken my valiums and I don't really feel hungry. My hormones are still in my system so its not that yet. I can take my other meds in an hour or so. The only food that sounds good is some M&Ms. I was going to have a salad for dinner.

I had some almond butter and I took some of my meds early. But I still feel just kinda mediocre.