I always get "lost" in a discussion like this - and the thread did turned into a discussion...
I can only speak for me... a DIDer.... diagnosised several times...
My childhood was very traumatic.. early... 2 1/2... and on - confirmed by my father later in life.. and I say this because.. of all the "hype" on recovered memories.. and am senistive to that..
I lose time... used to lose time a great deal... run into people that I didn't know... managed my work life with stick-its.. came into conversations in the "middle" of stuff..
Found that I had to learn.. what I call "damage control" to my life because "I".. had done something... without knowing about it - purchased a new car... mortgage on my home.. yelled at someone..
From the time I was in 4th grade - I knew.. I had "insides" - how did I know.. I don't know..
Issues arose.. where sometimes.. I could not read... and then.. could read - advanced to 6th grade independent reading..
lost time... as far back as I can remember..
had.. I don't know how many different managers - different companies.. say "you appear outgoing, fun loving one day" and the "next you are extremely serious".... and people do not know what to expect from you...so... in other words.. be one.. or the other.. but be consistent - which I couldn't..
So... what I did learn... is I am ME.... integrated.. unintegrated... I am the same ME.... as I am with or without the label...
and the label.. isn't important - you are important.. and do.. whatever feels healing to you... and ignore the "rest" of the "stuff"... because in the end.. you are what is important....
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