The majority of my internal dialogue is about my eating disorder. I won't share the details because it could be triggering, but it's always about my weight, my body, losing weight, and restricting food.

After that I'm usually thinking about art and painting. The rest of my eternal dialogue is mundane like, "I need to do a load of laundry" or "I need to get ready for bed", boring stuff like that.

When I'm depressed the dialogue is mostly negative self-talk and the ED thoughts get even more intense. The thoughts about art/creativity go away and I can't paint or draw.

When I'm manic I have racing thoughts. The majority of my internal dialogue goes like, "Ok, I can control this (the manic episode). I won't end up in the hospital this time", but I usually end up in psychosis and have to go to the hospital

While in psychosis I don't notice much of an internal dialogue because I hallucinate a lot (mostly visual and tactile) and just feel extremely high/euphoric. The only internal dialogue I notice are the thoughts dealing with my delusions.