I know you are right Jello I just journaled a bunch of pages and I have some insights already.

Thing is, I'm mad that he forced this on me and I don't want to give him my insights now...I had a major insight today and felt relief. Thought that I couldn't wait to tell him and then I remembered...he hurt me on purpose to get this insight.

Forget it. Its like being played you know...we are going along fine and things are easy for him and then he decides...time to crank it up a notch and leaves me in the bottomless pit of pain for 16 days.

If someone really cares for you do they do this?