And for those who had Mothers' who were ill, and couldn't love them as well as needed, there s comfort in knowing the sick parts are dead and gone ... earth to earth, dust to dust.
If such a thing as energy goes on, then it's a comfort to know, for all the frightened child-hearts in the world, that her strong energy goes on, and not the scary hurtful biological stuff that brought us pain.
Our minds are the battlefields for what has to improve.
May every abused child make it better for themselves everyday -
remembering only that illness robs the mind if it's not arrested, and what Mother would hurt their children if they weren't sick?
WE have to make a new way, of loving ourselves and others without drama
and pain - and it's easy compared to what we experienced.
If our Mothers were perfected, I'm sure they would fix everything they could.
They are not available to do this -
BUT WE ARE!
Let's not finish the job of abuse
Let's find forgiveness for her, and relief in the fact,
we can control ourselves for the most part, and change
our paths.
With or without their permission.
I don't give her permission to infringe on my well-being anymore.
I didn't want it in my life.
I don't want it in her death.
Rest in Peace Mother.
A woman taking abuse from nobody anymore
Thank you.
(for others also, who know this pain, it's over ... )
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I am larger and better than I thought.
I did not know I held so much goodness.
- Walt Whitman
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