I'm kind of jealous of you all that benefit from therapy. I tried it for years and I did not get anything from it. My problem is I have trust issues so I was never able to really open up. I have thought about trying again but I don't know. I did do a a inpatient Cognitive Behavior therapy after I got out of inpatient years ago and it was funny I was in it for 3 months Monday through Friday 8 hours a day. When I got done I thought it was a waste of my time a and figured I would never use it. Well about 6 or so months afterwards I actually caught myself actually using it lol.

My depression is a little bit better today. Which is the first time I've been able to say that in a while. Woke up fairly normally for me (about an hour later than usual). I went to the deli up the road to pick up some things (and I went by myself instead of waiting for my mom to want to go) and then I got the trash from my mom's house and mine (we share trash service) down to the road. And I even made pasta for dinner. No nap. I'm probably up too far today as I'm not tired and recently I've been quite tired or sometimes asleep by now. But I usually have mixed episodes so it wouldn't surprise anyone who treats me if depression morphs.


For now one day at a time. Actually today was more 1 hour at a time. I just hope it is the beginning of improvement for real.

Saw Richard today and had a huge panic attack. Good place to have one I suppose. He understands all the panic and fear Im hip deep in right now.

We started working on my catastrophe thinking because that’s a huge problem. So we talked about ways to try and lessen it . It will never go totally away of course but it’s something that is really hard for me at this level.

As of right now Steve is heading home next Tuesday. I hope that doesn’t wind up being longer.

*** just wanted to let everyone know that since I use Tapatalk on here that I don’t have the ability to give hugs so I click Thanks***

Hugs my friends

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