Yeah, just because I'm having the urge to quit the zyprexa doesn't mean I'll do it. I'm way too scared of another psychosis/mania to do that. But I have to wait to see a psychiatrist and in the mean time I'm feeling this loathing feeling when I take the zyprexa (3x a day). I am going to switch to Invega so I can get injections because compliance has been a long standing problem for a while. Zyprexa was just supposed to be the heavy hitter to get me out of the psychosis/mania and now that I'm no longer hearing voices/seeing things/delusional/doing stupid stuff I'm itching to stop it. No need to convince me to stay on my meds right now, it's just an urge and between meds, self harm, and substance misuse I've learned I don't have to act on every urge I have.