Thanks again everyone. I do appreciate your input and there is some relief that others know how I feel. Still the feeling is persistent. I get a few moments to breathe and feel some relief and then it all hits me again. All I can do is appreciate the good moments and get through the bad. But getting through the bad is taking a lot more out of me than I seem to have lately. Living each day just to put one foot in front of the other is getting old.

I started eating a little better because I know some of my mental issues is related to how I treat myself. But now I feel deprived of the few things that I know make me feel better. Well, better for a few moments and then I feel terrible later. Now, other than some snuggles with my dogs, I don't have much that makes me smile or even just feel relief.

I'll give it one more day.