My Support Forums - View Single Post - Bipolar check-in #63

*Beth* · Mar 04, 2022, 02:50 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

This will most probably be my last post on the subject. I went to 4 doctor’s appointments yesterday with mom and brother. We then ate at an outstanding restaurant with good southern cooking. During the meal, I went out to the car and called my therapist to tell her I needed to go inpatient again that night when I had a few epiphanies.

I’ve been making great strides with my mental health and I’ve come a long way. I just happened to get into a relationship with someone whose brand of love was toxic and wasn’t even real. My therapist believes he is seriously ill and could be more than that. I was lucky to have tangled with such a person and come out with only a few scars. I don’t think I am in danger at this time but I will keep a lookout. How many people can say they tangled with that and came out stronger and better for it? I plan to be one. I feel better now that I see it for what it was.

I am a strong woman and a survivor. I will remain open hearted and when the time is right, I’ll try again.

I’m meeting M this weekend. Yay!

I hope everyone has a peaceful weekend.

My husband and I, though dear friends, were separated for some years. During part of that time I was in a relationship with a man who turned out to have bipolar disorder. For the first year the relationship was good...he treated me with care, concern, and love (actually, infatuation) that my husband had never shown to me. After that year (we had started living together) things got bad. Then they got really bad. There were red flags all over the place. Neon red. Finally, I intuitively felt myself to be in danger from the man. I left him (quickly) and moved to a different town. He was threatening to kill me. It was terrifying. I made a police report, changed everything - not only address and phone number, but email, Facebook, etc., etc.

I wasted years in that relationship. For nothing, except hell on earth.

I have heard through a friend that the man finally was diagnosed (after being a homeless addict for 2 years), got on meds, started going to church, and was doing okay. I'm glad and wish him only well. But I still have bad dreams about him - regularly. I still fear him.

You have done a wise, wise thing by getting out of that relationship. Be at peace with that, let it strengthen you, and please- don't look back.