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*Beth* · Mar 04, 2022, 03:14 PM

I feel calmer already, just being here and checking on all of you. And being able to vent myself.

I cannot get my precious Sidney's glucose regulated. It's high during the day, then drops too low in the evening. I spoke with her vet yesterday, he is so kind. He's somewhat confounded, too. We're trying a new food approach, since food is so important with regulating diabetes. I am also waiting for a new bottle of insulin. So those are 2 big hopefuls.

Now my huge vent: I have ordered the food - days ago, in fact. I ordered the insulin 8 days ago. The case of food was supposed to be delivered yesterday. I called only to be told the shipment has been lost. They're sending out a new case, but it will certainly be 3 days before that arrives. I will go to the grocery store, hoping they have some of the necessary (canned) food in stock. Lately, they have not.

I've ordered the other type of food, also days ago. No word on where it is. Again - late.

The pharmacy just told me that the insulin won't be arriving for at least another 10 days. Minimum.

If I had the foods and insulin it would likely make a big difference in regulating Sid. But every shipment is lost or late. And all of this stuff is expensive...I expect much better customer service. I'm up to my ears with "covid is slowing everything down."

I slept well, but I am exhausted with a sore throat again. It's stress and anxiety. I keep having trouble breathing; I am having waves of panic. I had the appointment with my therapist yesterday, but she called in sick (typical of her). I'm scheduled to see her Monday - if she's there.

I'm asking the Universe for help. I'm working to breathe deeply. I'm trying to do little self-care things, like the pedicure yesterday, and small things, even nice-smelling hand lotion. In essence, I am fighting to stay above the water. I'm a fighter, but a tired one. And of course, the war in Ukraine is constantly on my mind, even if I turn the news off. I knew many Ukrainians in my home town (Sacramento); I wonder how they are doing now.

Every little noise sounds like chaos. I will turn on some Baroque music, it helps my focus.

Please, if you guys could send good vibes, prayers, anything positive, my way I am sure grateful.

Thank you for being here. Love and hugs all around