Trauma was a word I couldn't even think, let alone say for the first four years of therapy. Only recently have I been able to associate with it, and think about it, so I think I can relate to where you are at. Same with that word abuse, but I think I'm further away from that one! Sadly I can't help about what trauma work looks like, because I think I am only just starting to scratch the surface. Current T is a trauma therapist though, and so I'm hoping I'll get to find out what it looks like (if you can ever know!?!?) Sorry I can't help more, but I wish you the best with it if it is where you want to go!