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thankyou for hearing me. i know others go through it too and i hate for anyone to feel this way. in the past i've thought maybe she wil change but the truth is she's relieved i'm no longer in her life it was all just duty. i try to care for myself and i've been succeeding quite well until i went into hospital. i have a wonderful family and wonderful friends and this sounds awful but i just wanted my mum, or the mum i've always wanted, not her.
just lately if i've had a bad day i've been much better the next. today i feel even more down. after so much positivity i am trying to think of ways to bring myself up. i'm still in so much physical pain it's getting me down. i know i'm lucky having a good family and friends, some have none of that i know. what is it about a mum that we crave? thankyou for listening and giving me your advice. hugs, jinny xoxoxoxoxoxo