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ScarletPimpernel · Mar 04, 2022, 10:11 PM

I feel/felt that my relationship with my dad wasn't "that bad". He was at least loving to me when I got his attention unlike my mom who hated me. But then L said something that just tore my heart apart, not because she was mean or even wrong, but because it's was the truth:

Trigger (Nothing graphic; just neglect and sad):

Possible trigger:

I used to play under my dad's desk in his office when I was little. It would be one of my safe spaces to escape my mom because she wasn't allowed in there. I just had to be quiet. He gave me some left over computer parts, and I pretended to build things like he did. This is/was one of my happy memories from childhood. And then the other week, L said she felt sad for me when talking about this. She said I was just a little girl and I was so desperate for any love and attention that I was just satisfied being in my dad's presence. And that I deserved more. I deserved to be played with and hugged and encouraged. We both started crying at that realization.