It’s really difficult isn’t it?
My med provider has me on two antidepressants now and an antipsychotic as a mood stabiliser.
I recently had (/still have) a depressive episode and was started on another antidepressant with caution.

My med provider wanted me to be an inpatient to do this but I refused and I’m not unwell enough to be detained involuntarily.

I’ve had years of therapy to try and recognise and cope when I go high and low. But when I go high or low is still really difficult to recognise and cope because of the nature of the symptoms and experience.

If I have another low whilst on two antidepressants, what will they do next? I have no idea.

I reckon when we learn understanding of why depressive episodes have the symptoms they do, we will be able to treat them much better.
Because simply telling someone who is depressed to fight with their depressed mind and just “go out” is frankly unhelpful.

Could you imagine someone with a broken leg being told to will it better or just walk on their broken leg?? It takes time to heal physically, just like it takes time to heal mentally.