Last night I went to my aunts. My cousin and his wife and their 2 kids were there. In addition to the other people I was actually expecting. It was the most family I've been around since my transtion. It went ok. My 2 uncles said I looked good. My one uncle gave me a handshake. My second uncle gave me a fist bump. My uncles girlfriend means well but she doesn't understand things or really have a filter and she dead named me later in the night then apoglogized and quickly switched to my real name. Then she asked me if I was going to shave. Lol. She's accepting just not really understanding. I don't take what she says personally. I got back to the hotel late about 10. I hadnt taken my Geodon and I ended up not getting to sleep until 12:40. Then I woke up at 6. So I legit needed an iced coffee which legit helped instead of making me anxious. But my stomach is off today and it started last night and I don't know if its the increase in topamax. I had an extra packed for some reason so I started the new dose yesterday afternoon. But overall I feel ok and I am ready to go home. The trip was productive but a bit anxiety provoking basicsally just because of my pdoc appointment.