I think accepting the word means you have to face the feelings. Which when they are new can be totally overwhelming. Like you, never taught them, never understood them. Never felt then until K showed me how, taught me what they were. Take it slowly. You sound like you have a good T to work with here and I truly hope you can find a way. Sorry for derailing a little, I'm intrigued to hear more wha others have to say about trauma work....