If my mum showed some selflessness for once in her life and gave a damn about what has happened i could forgive her. I have forgiven her for many things. But the fact she is only bothered about her new 73 year old boyfriend who has no family and a lot of money speaks volumes to me. She is in denial about the whole abuse issue thinking it was only 'him'. She has 2 major expensive cruises lined up so why should she spend any time thinking of her only daughter.

She has made it quite obvious she wants nothing to do with my problems, she has said she is too old (62) for any more hassle so that is that.

Yes today i sound bitter. i have been quite happy about her being out of my life for a few months now so i'm selfish needing her now when I want something. i came out of hospital and just craved to see her for some ieiotic stupid reason. spose i should just gow up really Jinnyann.