I’m supposed to meet my daughter halfway to visit this morning. I don’t want to go. I’m in pain. I’d rather sit on the couch, pop some pills and sleep. I won’t do that though. It’s not in the best interest of my healing. I will drag myself up and out and I’ll feel better for it. May be in tears but I’ll do it.

I was good friends with this guy for a year and then when the relationship became more we were wrapped up in each other for hours and hours a day. Everyone and everything else took a back seat. I can see now that 14-17 hours a day wrapped up in someone is not normal. When I broke off the relationship, I lost my best friend as well. I know none of it was healthy. My heart just hasn’t received the memo yet and I feel things too deeply anyway. If I had to do it over again would I? That’s a hard call. I really, really loved the guy and didn’t realize how twisted he was until the end.

One great thing to come out of this is that my sister and I are talking and she has been very supportive. We’re planning things to do together.

I’ve researched the top 10 dating websites of 2022. I’m not ready yet but when I am, I’ll put myself out there. In the meantime, I will work on why I’m always trying to fix and keep attracting unhealthy guys. I suspect it’s low self worth.

I’m processing things in a healthy manner and healing at a good pace. It will just take time.

I hope everybody has a peaceful Sunday. Hugs to all