I recall your posts. Well we can’t really know why people do what they do and trying to figure it out is a waste of time. You cannot get inside peoples heads. We can only understand why we do what we do.

She is not the only person who communicates to people online for fun or fight boredom or as an escape and doing it with a man who is far away is a safe way. It’s not uncommon. She might be talking to more than one person and can’t really keep up. You don’t know if she was actually planning to jump off 16th floor. Could be all part of the game. And it’s a manipulation.

Her not being able to leave the country because of her ex might be a lie too. Who really knows.

If you feel you are garbage and trash it’s a good idea to work with a good therapist and try to get to the bottom of it

Have you ever sent her money?