I don't have an addiction and have never had one. Not sure where I implied that I did? I have felt some trepidation over acquiring illicit ketamine and shrooms to see if they will help my depression, as medication is failing me. I know my therapist doesn't approve and I doubt my psychiatrist will, either. But that will mostly be because I got them from the dark web (my therapist is also ignorant about psychedelics and all the recent research).

I found the ketamine to be a distinctly unenjoyable experience, so no danger of me abusing it tbh. I tested it to make sure it wasn't cut with coke, meth, fentanyl, etc. The shrooms were interesting, but emotionally exhausting. I can't see myself abusing them either.

I have had thoughts of other drugs, but those are just passing temptations. I'm not looking to acquire an addiction. That's the last thing I need.