I had an extremely bad panic attack and paranoia last night but I managed to get through it with some coping skills and was eventually able to go to sleep. I slept good, but slept too long and woke up with a headache which I usually do when I sleep too long. But I'm glad I slept because I only got 2 hours of sleep the previous night. I feel nauseous right now, I'm not sure why. I think it's because of taking my meds without eating enough. I ate before I took them but I have to eat a lot for some reason before I take them or I get intense heartburn. I had a rice cake with peanut butter and a granola bar before taking them but I guess that's not enough. I really need to make myself start eating a bigger breakfast because I hate when I get heartburn from my meds, it ends up lasting an hour or longer and it's bad because I take like 6 or 7 pills in the morning. I have GERD on top of that so it's not good. I just get in a rush sometimes and try to eat something quick but I can't keep doing that.

I'm going to try to get in to see the dentist this week for a cleaning/exam. Tomorrow I have a video appointment with my therapist. Things have been good for the most part, just the occasional episode of paranoia and sometimes panic attacks. But my mood is good and stable, and I stopped recklessly spending money since my mood stabilizer was increased. I've been taking my meds consistently.

My kitty is so sweet, she gets under the blankets with me when I'm sleeping and I wake up with her on/or next to me purring and in the morning she licks my nose to wake me up. Her carrier was delivered the other day. She LOVES it. She keeps hanging out in it and purring. I hope that means when it's time to take her to the vet in it to get spayed she doesn't freak out when I try to put her in it. It's one of those nice ones that has mesh sides and top so she can see out and the top and sides open with zippers. It's a lot better than the plastic crates I used to have for my previous cats. Those things were a nightmare to get them into, they hated them. I never realized until recently though that there were nicer ones that are less anxiety inducing to cats.

Here's a picture of her hanging out in it: