I am super crabby today. Borderline angry. I guess its hormone related. I'm getting pissed at my mom though which is not very common. I deactived my facebook for a bit. All these "we're all gonna die" and "the worlds gonna end" posts were too much for me. I went to the library and picked up 5 books. I'm hoping I can get into reading again. I'm emailing my doctor to see if theres any other option besides going off the shots completely. As much as getting some relief from this anxiety sounds like, I don't want to go off the testereone totally so I'm hoping he can come up with a alternative solution. I know he had some other options, like lowering the dose some more, seeing the blood doctor right away, donating a pint of blood to lower the levels etc. but my mom was being a bit pushy for me to go off it for 3 months. So hopefully he gets back to me soon with a solution both me and him are happy with.

Edit: my doctor got back to me and strongly suggests I don't go back on the testosterone for 3 months until I see the blood doctor. He says with the elevated hemoglobin and hematocrit levels theres just too much of a risk for me having a heart attack or a stroke. So I guess I'll just have to deal with being off it. I hope its worth it in the long run.