My brother in law dropped my nephews off and one of them is sick and coughing. He's wearing a mask but I'm not sure what if anything that will do. The 5 year old doesn't have a mask on and my brother in law didnt have one on either. So I'm guessing they most likely already have what he has. Its just annoying when they bring the kids over when they are sick. I don't know if high red blood count levels indicate a greater chance at getting a worse case of whatever they have. I don't know. I feel like things are a bit of a mess all over.

I wish I could get into the habit of taking one of my 80 geodons at 1AM when I wake up the way I had been. That makes me sleep better and helps my anxiety during the day. But the 4PM-8PM anxiety is also hard and its hard to get to sleep without it.

My boxers are pinching into me so badly I need to fix them. My mom is really upset at my doctor for talking about the possibilty of the end of the of the world because of the ukraine situation. She said he should not have said that and I have been a mess ever since my appointment with him. She said he really set off my anxiety.

I went to turn off my light and I ended up touching a picture of my dead grandma instead. The picture is on the opposite wall where the light switch is. I've never done that before. ****ing omens.