Dear T,

I hope you're understanding and not, say, annoyed about the email. Or at least that your understanding is stronger than your annoyance. I feel it's easy for you to just see it from your perspective of simply being safe and perhaps thinking you're still providing therapy, so what's the difference? When there is a difference, for me at least. I think I just need some reassurance that it won't keep going on this way forever. And for you to understand what I'm feeling. I was going to include that whole part on lacking control, but thought better of it. But that's really what much of it is about.

Why do I keep glancing at my email, even though I'm quite certain you won't reply until tomorrow? Plus, I mean, I just sent it like a half-hour ago. I wouldn't be surprised if you read it tonight, just to make sure it's not urgent, but then wait to reply till tomorrow (that's the sense I got from how you describe checking emails, anyway). And you may well just say "Let's discuss next session" anyway. Which is fine. Though something about understanding how it's difficult would help, too.

Love,
LT