I caved and cancelled my dog's grooming appointment. The logistics of getting her there by myself on the bus and then loitering in the neighborhood for hours waiting and getting her home on the bus during rush-hour were just overwhelming and my anxiety was unbearable. Luckily her grooming is not urgent. I emailed my one close neighbor and asked for her help as she drives and has taken us before. Last time she took us didn't go well as she was cranky but i think that's partly because i was inflexible about the arrangements so this time i left it all up to her and her preference and hopefully we will have a smoother experience.

So i get to enjoy my dogs wavy fluffy fur for two to six more weeks. She looks so cute with long fur, tho i so adore her, i love her when she is cropped and smooth too. It's so funny, when she comes to me from the grooming and we are united after being separated for a whole two or three hours i just light up!

@BethRags:

Sorry to hear you are doing all the heavy-lifting in your relationship with your husband. Once *i* had a near-medical-emergency in a foreign country and when i resolved it my ex yelled at *me* for scaring *him* when *i* was the one who was going to have to go to Emergency in a foreign country. It's very unfortunate they are this way.

@Jennifer 1967:

Yes, i think you dodged a bullet. Getting over a guy is tough work. Romance is such a joy and it's failure is so unpleasant. Be patient. I still grieve over a guy i broke up with in July. Changing gears is so hard. Be easy on yourself and try and remind yourself of all the reasons you broke up with him when you feel yourself wavering. I know breaking up was the best thing in my case too but the day is long and it's easy to forget. Jerry Seinfeld says breaking-up is like knocking over a Coke machine. You've got to rock it from side-to-side a few times before it finally goes over!

@Pinny:

Please be honest with your doctor. You don't have to put on a brave face for them. I know it's hard to be patient but it's all you can do.