Perna and Sunrise,
Thank you both for your responses. Both responses had key things that helped me start to clear the noise in my head. I just seem to let comments get to me and then my mind gets so tangled up I can’t think clearly. It’s like a computer virus that infects my thinking and sends me into cognitive overload and paranoia. I don’t have a problem with my weight loss or medication. My weight gain over the past few years was indicative of serious problems. I’m addressing those problems and my weight is simply returning to where it belongs. It is not a symptom of an illness or the result of some addiction or use of a mild stimulant. It is a sign of returning health.
I do however have a continuing problem with not taking responsibility for my own health care and communicating what I want. I withhold and hide things both from myself and my healthcare providers. I’m not sure why I behave this way but it clearly impedes my care, makes me feel guilty, and leaves me vulnerable to doubt. Sunrise, your suggestion that I ask my T to facilitate communication with my neurologist, sounds logical. However, the thought of my T exchanging information with my doctors terrifies me. I know this fear is irrational but it is deep and intense. The root of it is unclear to me at this point. Although my brain is settling down, I know I should probably talk about this in my next therapy session. I’ve put this on my T session agenda for this week.