Dear K,

I have so much to say to you, but I do wonder whether I should bother. This feels exactly the same as it was with my Mum and I'm not sure I can handle it. I'm really not sure. To express your love for someone, to open your heart to someone, only to have it met with silence and a door that just won't quite open is heartbreaking, and I'm really not sure that I need to be doing it myself again.

I just don't understand. You have said the words "I love you". You showed me the picture in the book saying "to love... And to be loved". I do sense that you care deeply for me, and yet still there is this barrier that I cannot cross, just like with my Mum. I don't understand. Why can't you just say how you feel. Act how you feel. Why?

The only answer I can come up with us that you don't feel it, but that is at odds to what I believe, so leaves me in a bit of a quandary.

I do love you. I am so grateful for everything that you were to me, and I do dearly wish we could find a way here, but maybe it's just best to call it quits.