I slept pretty good last night for once. I took 20mil instead of 30mil of melatonin and I only took 80mil of geodon instead of the full 160. Then when I woke up at 2 I took the other 80 and went back to sleep until 5. My anxiety is a bit rough today but not about anything in particular. I went to Target and got a Quest pizza. Then I went to the library to get the book Helter Skelter. My mom didn't care and she told me a story about how when she was in college there was a rumor being spread around campus about how the FBI would be on the lookout for anyone who checked out those types of books. So all the kids started checking the books out and of course the FBI never came after them. I'm just legit interested in reading the book but my dumbass therapist will probably think something is up. I wish she would learn to trust me and know I'm not some evil person with ulterior motives. I'm just a regular guy who likes to learn about diffrent things and who has a lot of interests. But she doesn't seem to understand that. Anyways I also went to the international market and got banana Kit Kats. I may go out again later or I might just stay home and read.